Live & Let Live

I love my acceptance (it’s been a place I’ve worked to get to) that we need all kinds of people in the world, and that there’s a place for everyone, even if that place isn’t among my intimate friendships.

The Color Run, Las Vega, 2012

While learning to allow and accept everyone to feel how they feel, think how they choose, act how they wish, I’m finally getting to the point of expecting others to allow me the same right. There was a small chunk of time in my adult life when I was told that to be truly healthy I needed to see things differently than I was seeing them at the time. For the first time ever, I experienced depression. I appreciate what that time period gave me in the way of empathy for others. But the person who was “helping” me did me no favor. Since then, there have been others who have scoffed at my optimism and even been offended at my choice to see brightness in a dark spot. It’s hurtful, and it makes me question myself. I’m tired of questioning myself because of what others think or say to me.

Here’s the truth about me: I am a cheerleader, an optimist, and I nearly always see the silver lining. I take a hard thing and find the joy in it. I make some not-great choices, but see that those affected have been able to rise above, and have experiences they might not have had otherwise. It is easy for me to see how God can and does help us to make wonderful things out of hard/bad/painful things. I’m ok with me being that way. I’m ok with others not. But even though I like myself the way I am, I still have to fight my crushed heart, my questioning mind, and my confusion when someone suggests it would be better if I weren’t the way I am. It’s a battle, but it’s one that I’m going to continue to fight. Not because I think my way is best, but because I think my way is me. And although I’m in a constant state of change and progression, I like who I am. I hope you feel the same way about you.

What Do I See When I Look at Me?

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Is it true for most of us that when we look at ourselves we first find our faults? Speaking introspectively, don’t we all have a desire to improve, and therefore, look at the things we’re weak in? Do you (like I do) often dwell on those undeveloped or underdeveloped characteristics? I think this is a natural thing for all good people who are trying to progress. But I believe it is erroneous thinking. Here’s why:

In my scripture study and contemplating today I read John’s revelation in The New Testament, talking symbolically about the pre-earth existence when our Father presented His plan for each of us. (The New Testament, Revelation 5) His plan required One worthy to fulfill the calling of Savior of all. I’d never given a whole lot of thought to Jesus’ offer. But today thought about His self-examination, His prayerful pondering, His considerable thoughts, all before volunteering. I love His example of humbly scrutinizing His thoughts, His heart and His actions. He had to have looked at His goodness! He had to have known how intimately loved He is by all of us! He had to have recognized His abilities and His worthiness!

Seeking to become more like the Savior in every way, I’m now committed to looking at myself more gently and really, more honestly. I am good. I have increasing light within because of my heart and my actions. I make mistakes, and I use them to change. I’m now intentionally adding to my daily conversations with my Father, not just a request to help me with my specific weaknesses, but also acknowledgment of all of the wonderful growth I’ve made, of the good things I’ve done, and of the sweetness of my heart.

Like the Savior, I am good. I am becoming more like Him every day. I am deserving of His love and support and praise. So are you.